So, it’s December. Glad to see everyone is still around, I hope you’ve been fighting the good fight, staying well, and trying to do some good.
Sorry I haven’t been in touch or up-to-date on this in the past few months because, well it’s been crazy. But since December is always a bit slow, and now that I have some time to write, time to catch y’all up on everything. Get ready for all the posts.
2019 was full of ass-kicking, both receiving and giving. It’s incredibly weird to say that in a few weeks I can find out if my life will be irrevocably changed, but it’s true. But hey, we’ll all get to that in a bit.
Where were we.
Now, I think we left off on some random snippets of putting the pilot together, but let’s take it all the way back to January.
So I had just turned 32, just a year into trying to be an actor full time, and having some successes, but mostly failing constantly. There’s not really a career where you’re met with so much rejection and neverending failure. It’s a hell of a thing to get used to, but after a year…yeah, still wasn’t used to it.
My big push in 2019 was not to work as an extra. I had started doing all of that so I could just be on set and learn what it was all about. But after a year of grinding that, I got about as much as I could from it. It’s not a horrible living, especially if you’re SAG but I didn’t sign up to be a breathing prop on someone else’s set. I wanted more, so I resolved not to do any of that in 2019.
I didn’t know if I’d be able to keep that up, and it’s hard to turn down $200 when they’re texting you to come in everyday. 2019 was going to be the year that I needed take a chance on myself.
I was used to having a steady stream of small checks coming in every week to scrape by, but I was going to give that all up. You can’t do extra work and audition. An audition can come up, a callback, and let’s be honest, working as an extra is mind-numbing. It’s long hours and absolutely draining. You can’t be productive on those days, and whenever you claim to try to get work done in holding, you never do.
I met great people while working as an extra and you build a comfort and camaraderie with them and that tempts you to stay, but if you want to grow, you have to keep moving and keep moving forward. I had to bet on myself, even though smart money would bet against you.
That’s the story of 2019 and that’s the story I’ll be telling, the Year of the Big Bet.
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