I think we all know those girls who are always photogenic in every single goddamned one of their pictures on Facebook and Instagram. Perfect smiles, with the perfect filter, wearing the perfect dress, with the perfect pose. Don’t get me wrong, I fall for it every time. They look gorgeous and their smiles are stunning. However, once you see them pop up in pictures, you start noticing that they look the exact same way in every single picture. That’s great and all, but it’s obvious that it’s been practiced and rehearsed. It’s an incredibly useful skill, and more power to you for having it, but it leaves something lacking. For better or worse, I’ve gotten really good at discerning between the real and the rehearsed.
I think there’s really nothing more attractive than making a girl really laugh. I think in order to really have anyone let you in, you have to have them trust you, and I think a huge part of that is making that person happy, and laughing is a huge part of that. I’m not talking about the polite laugh that everyone has, I’m talking about the genuine thing. I actually think that’s what I remember most about my ex’s and my crushes, their laughs. The first time you get that real laugh, whether it’s throaty, high-pitched, or even a snort, you know it’s real. And those memories, I don’t think they’re always photogenic, eyes closed, face scrunched up in god knows what shape, but they’re the things that I remember, and it’s more real than any photo where someone told you to smile.
I remember I bought a Polaroid camera in college, and I think the week after, they announced that were going to stop making film for it, which is just my sort of luck. But I went out, and I bought as many packs as I could of film (which is actually really freaking expensive). I still have stacks and stacks of those polaroids in my room, and every time I flip through them, it’s awesome. The lighting is terrible, sometimes the image is blurry, but every single damn one of them is of a real moment. We all pretty much have phones now that have the ability to capture and create whatever image we want, but what I have in those Polaroids is an unvarnished memory. It’s that one moment, captured in it’s unfiltered glory, forever. No re-takes because our eyes were closed, no sepia tone filter, just us being us. That’s what I kind of miss.
And that’s why, when I see a girl’s picture, and I can tell that it’s just her, being her actual self in a picture, I’m instantly drawn to her, because she’s not trying to make a nice profile picture, or make herself look cool. She’s just her undeniable self, and there is something inherently beautiful in that, or at least that’s what I think.